Tonight is the night of the official information evening and even though we have spent a lot of time talking to each other about what adoption means and how we feel we could offer a child/children a loving home; it’s one of the most nerve wracking times of my life, I can’t speak for my husband but I am confident he feels the same as well!
The girls in work ask if I am looking forward to it and I smile the biggest I can muster and say “yes can’t wait”, i know this is the start for us but inside I am dreading the possibility of having to introduce myself at a welcome information evening; I am dreading the patience that I am told I must have for the long process that is ahead; and deep down all I crave is to not only be a loving mother but to provide a safe, caring and loving home for our family.
Well it’s pouring down, typically and as usual we are running. The hubby is late arriving home from work – its 4:45pm and we have to be there for 6pm... All new tram lines are being implemented near us to pee us drivers off increase public transport, it is all causing havoc with the traffic and I am convinced that we are going to be late as we have to fight through it all; and as ever I’m flapping. As he comes in and I practically make him throw his tea down his throat, he runs upstairs to get changed and I am stood by the front door waiting (probably not so patiently). As usual I have panicked over nothing and we are there 20 minutes early and met by two lovely social workers from our LA. We were first there surprisingly and so sat down with a coffee to calm the bag of nerves that we both were.
During the night some of the couples mentioned how they already had children and I found myself wanting to say, get to the back of the queue we don’t have any – ha-ha – but they will have more experience in parenting than we will and I have read that this could make them priority as they would be more experienced to meet the needs of a more challenging child, or so the system assumes.
I was like a sponge wanting to take all the information in and retain it all, but I was also an emotional wreck, especially during the video they showed of other adopter’s stories. I also realised this evening that I have a strong urge to adopt two but this is something we will have to discuss as at the moment we haven’t really discussed the possibility of taking more than one and this process has to be equally right for us both as much as the child.
We have the form in our hands and surprisingly its my husband who urges me to sign and we agree we will send it in tomorrow. I have noticed that the office it goes to is just minutes from work so I will drop that off tomorrow lunch time when we have both signed it. Hand delivered... just so I know it has arrived safely.
Its exciting times ahead, so watch this space
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